I’m scared to death that there may not be another one like this and I confess that I’m only holding on by a thin thin thread.
This cannot be happening. It still feels unreal. I can’t believe my best friend is gone. Who will be there to dry my tears will the softest ears, who will be there to spoon with me when I feel so alone, who will greet me with the sweetest eyes after a long day, who will run by my side wherever I want to go-tail wagging, who will make me laugh with that squeaker baby when I’m so angry, who will wake me with shouting barks only to say good morning, who will stay by my side regardless of the things I’ve done, and who will love so unconditionally unlike anyone I have ever come across in 18 years. Someone tell me. Why don’t I understand. This doesn’t make sense. He was here in my arms yesterday. I took him for a walk in the park, I watched him glide through the water chasing a duck. I still remember l kissing the slight bump on his head. How is this happening. This cannot be real.
as bad as it was, as bad as it hurt, I thank God I didn’t get what i thought that I deserved. Sometimes life leads you down a different road, when your holding onto someone that you’ve got to let go. Someday you’ll see the reason why.
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, nor our fears for today or our worries for tommorow, not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.
good luck. thats all i’ve got for you. sometimes i just don’t understand.